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During
her greatest moment of difficulty, St. Teresa of Avila complained to the
Lord about her pain.
“But Teresa,” the
Lord answered, “that is how I treat my friends.”
“No wonder you’ve
got so few friends,” St. Teresa replied.
Falling in love with God is
fatal.
There is an intrinsic relationship
between divine love and human suffering. Does this mean that loving
God is a means of self-torture? Fulton Sheen said that some people
look for a crossless Christ, while others seek a Christless cross.
To love without sacrifice is not love. To suffer without love is
hell.
The theology of human suffering
in the context of divine love is not difficult to understand for those
who love God. Suffering takes the form of a container. Pain
becomes the sacrifice of a saint. The proof of the love is in the
bleeding.
Remove the Christian perspective
from divine love and human suffering, and what have you got? – Cruelty,
absurdity and foolishness. Saints who love God dwell in a land alien
to loveless souls. In that region strange events transpire: praise
resounds instead of a curse, hope defeats despair, and resignation to God’s
will overcomes pride and self-will. In the place of God-lovers, death
is life.
St. Bernard of Clairvaux
states his reason for loving God: “Love is sufficient to itself, it gives
pleasure by itself and because of itself. It is its own merit, its
own reward. Love looks for no cause outside itself, no effect beyond
itself. Its profit lies in practice. I love because I love,
I love that I may love. Of all the movements, sensations, and feelings
of the soul, love is the only one in which the creature can respond
to the Creator and make some sort of similar return, however unequal it
may be.”
Yet it is more fatal not
to fall in love with God. Souls who refuse to love God are admirably
strong. These people are great heroes without a battlefield.
They are incredible beings who are able to resist the love instinct of
the soul. Loveless people are a phenomenon: they are oceans whose
waves don’t return to the shore, flames that have no heat, and rain that
does not drench. They are gods whose power lies in not loving.
In The Four Loves,
C.S. Lewis writes about the consequence of not loving: “To love at all
is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will certainly
be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping
it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal.
Wrap it carefully around hobbies and little luxuries, avoid all entanglements,
lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of our selfishness. But in
that casket - safe, dark, motionless, airless – it will change. It
will not be broken: it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.
The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation.
The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all
dangers and perturbations of love is Hell.”
Lewis concludes that if a
man is not uncalculating toward the earthly beloveds whom he has seen,
he is none the more likely so toward God whom he has not. He says
that we shall draw nearer to God, not by trying to avoid sufferings inherent
in all loves, but by accepting them and offering them to Him; throwing
away all defensive armor, Lewis ends with these powerful words: “If our
hearts need to be broken, and if He chooses this as the way in which they
should break, so be it.”
Soren Kierkegaard writes
that man faces two alternatives: either to remain standing on the cliff
--- a life of despair that has no remedy or salvation --- or take a leap
of faith in order to achieve the highest self-actualization of the individual
through one’s commitment to God.
But if one decides to take
Kierkegaard’s leap of faith, the individual should be prepared to take
another leap, for without it the act of faith becomes futile and worthless.
After the leap of faith, the soul must take the leap of love. Faith
takes the soul to the mind of God. Love brings the soul to the heart
of God.
Christ took a leap of love
to redeem a world. Imagine Him standing at the edge of Heaven, looking
at miserable humanity below. With open arms Jesus took that great
leap from Paradise toward Earth. He landed as a helpless child in
the cave in Bethlehem. From there He leapt to become a preacher,
a teacher and a healer. Then, another leap: Jesus found Himself on
the waiting arms of the cross where His hands and feet were crucified.
Christian life is nothing but a constant leap of love.
But Christ’s leap of love
ended in an empty tomb and not on the bloody cross. Love returns
to where it started. This is perhaps why our instinct to love persists
in spite of our weakness, our sinfulness, our misery. The soul is
like a compass pointer: it always points northward toward God. Our
hearts are but a part of the great jigsaw puzzle of God’s own heart.
Unless we fix ourselves on our reserved and exclusive place in that puzzle,
a great question mark will continue to burn in our aimless souls.
Take the leap of love.
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